I haven't finished putting together my New Year's resolutions because in all honesty, looking ahead to what 2010 will bring to our little family is bringing me a bit of anxiety. Of course I'm very excited to meet Tiny Ford, but at times I am overwhelmed by the idea of having two kids. Yes, we wanted this and prayed for this, but that doesn't mean I'm not nervous and sad to think how much it will turn poor Creed's world upside down.
Then this summer, Larry will be finished with his fellowship (yahoo!), which means he will be getting a real job (yahoo!), which means that we have to decide where we want to live and we are both feeling very nervous about that (it's always been left to a computer match before). His specialty is in high demand so he can apply almost anywhere in the country and we have no idea how to choose.
So we will be moving at some point.
And we will probably be buying a house.
I sort of wish we could just fast forward to that point and skip all the tough decisions and hard work involved and just have fun together.
All of that is out of my control at the moment so I choose to just focus on the next few months. I'm always a little sad to see the holidays end because I miss being together with all my family and my days suddenly seem a little empty without all of them around. I always need things to look forward to.
Just after Christmas, Creed helped me plant some amaryllis bulbs because I love have something green around at this time of year and it's fun to look forward to the blooms.Since I'm looking forward to taking the time to cuddle with Tiny Ford as much as possible, I've also been busy with holiday preparations; Valentine surprises are in the works, small toys have been purchased for Easter Baskets, and would you believe that we are done shopping for Creed's birthday in March? (Although the party planning has not begun. I'm trying to convince him that he wants a Where the Wild Things Are party that he can wear his Halloween costume to, but he says he still wants a yellow party and he wants a 'struction cake, because he's rather obsessed with construction vehicles at the moment so I may have to go with that)
I'm looking forward to that new baby smell, and the valentine my dad always sends me, and heart shaped sugar cookies, and 2010 Newbery Award winners, and making Creed's birthday cake, and our moonlight/flashlight Easter egg hunt, and teeny tiny clothes in the laundry, and windy kite-flying weather, and spring bulbs emerging, and cozy forts inside while it's still cold, and more children's literature book club meetings,
What are you looking forward to this year?